tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60029118809439850822011-08-18T20:55:52.429-05:00"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." Philippians 4:13Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.comBlogger2941100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-3511631490625700782010-03-25T08:51:00.002-05:002010-03-25T08:59:03.799-05:00

This is Kevin, Bethany's husband. I wanted to make one last post here to thank all of you that have expressed such heartfelt condolences for the loss of my wonderful wife. Many of you also encouraged her when she was struggling, and I want to say how much I appreciate that.Bethany was a truly loving, caring, intelligent, and fun person, and I am extremely blessed to have had the time I had with

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The scale and I are not friends at the moment. I am angry. I'm angry at my body for failing to cooperate. I'm angry because I am trying to keep this momentum going, and it's difficult when all I have to show for 4 straight weeks of fairly strict adherence to a weight loss program has yielded a miserable 3 pound loss. I lost more than that the first WEEK I was back on program. I am still well

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com56tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-4060338195903462072010-03-16T22:39:00.003-05:002010-03-16T22:48:47.201-05:00

I have trust issues. Do you? You trust that if you do the right things, the weight will come off. Then you have a bad weigh-in like mine last week and suddenly your innocence is gone! Each time you approach the scale you feel that fear and trepidation. Will the scale burn you again? That's kind of how I feel this week. All in all, I have had a terrific week food-wise. I have used barely

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-37911478188280110522010-03-13T22:23:00.003-06:002010-03-13T22:50:48.526-06:00

So I won a new award from Leslie--thanks, this should be fun! I get to make up lies and then you can guess which one is true and which aren't. :DThe rules are:1. Thank the person who gave this to you.2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.3. Link to the person who nominated you.4. Tell up to 6 outrageous lies about yourself, and at least one outrageous truth.5. Nominate 7 "creative writers"

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Hoo boy. Today was a marvelous day--sarcasm intended. I was supposed to drive to my sister's house, about an hour and 20 minutes from here, to babysit her kids while she went with her husband to a doctor's appointment. Well, unfortunately I took the wrong highway when the road forked and drove about an hour the wrong way. By the time I finally got to my sister's house, it had taken me over 3

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-56656948373268496932010-03-11T23:04:00.002-06:002010-03-11T23:13:54.133-06:00

Well, it's been over a week since I posted, and there's good news and bad news. The good news is that I had 1.4 lb. loss last Thursday. The bad news is that I had a gain this week for some inexplicable reason. I was completely floored when I stepped on the scale and had a 1.8 lb. gain! That is just the worst feeling, I think, when you know you've done well and yet you have a gain. It was

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-69941037451187874302010-03-03T16:01:00.003-06:002010-03-03T16:13:35.737-06:00

Unless, of course, the ounce, of course, is a FLUID ounce! Yes, there is a point to this. So I know in my head that a fluid ounce and an ounce of weight are two different things, but sometimes my dumb assumptions get me in trouble. A serving of my Edy's ice cream is 1/2 cup, which is, of course, 4 ounces. Fluid ounces. But if you've ever tried smashing ice cream into a measuring cup, you'll

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-91624277190537438152010-02-25T23:13:00.002-06:002010-02-25T23:19:27.698-06:00

(Just to get the most annoying song ever stuck in your head--you're welcome...) This girl is on a roll, folks! Another awesome week under my belt and another 2.6 pounds gone. It's taking longer than I expected to get this weight back off for the umpteenth time, but I guess I should have known it would come off waaaaay slower than it piled on. I'm still using my iPhone app to track my points

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-74994604084286443252010-02-19T16:51:00.002-06:002010-02-19T16:57:43.262-06:00

Well, after my little fiasco Wednesday where I showed up to a non-appointment, I ended up being late for my Thursday appointment. I called to let them know I was running a little bit late (which is sort of funny because they are NEVER on time) and she informed me that I had a 15 minute grace period. Isn't that gracious of them? I started to inform them that I guess they could have a 24 hour

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-90141765775744566302010-02-17T16:18:00.002-06:002010-02-17T16:23:21.621-06:00

So I showed up at my appointment only to get bewildered looks from the receptionists who told me my doctor doesn't work on Wednesdays and Fridays. And their computer system is totally crashed. Luckily I had my appointment card to prove that, yes, I've had this appointment scheduled for a YEAR and I'm not a complete idiot, thankyouverymuch. Lovely. Now I get to come back TOMORROW and try this

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-26848329548756085652010-02-16T22:44:00.002-06:002010-02-16T22:48:37.477-06:00

Tomorrow is my cardiologist appointment. I'm nervous. I want it to be all better. And yet I'm not sure how I will react if he tells me I've gotten worse or have had little or no improvement. I'm just scared. I could really use some good news about now...I really feel kind of ashamed because I feel like I haven't kept up my end of the bargain. To some extent, the body is healed when you do

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-57903794011591867682010-02-15T22:34:00.002-06:002010-02-15T22:39:36.697-06:00

Well, things were great Friday. Saturday we decided to go out for Valentine's Day, so that day wasn't the best,but not the worst ever either. Sunday we ate out again and I did pretty badly and included some Valentine candy that never saw Monday morning. But today I'm back. In fact, I still have a LOAD of points left because I ate so little during the day. Now I'm really hungry and I know

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-74370510938858897792010-02-12T21:55:00.003-06:002010-02-13T16:40:11.673-06:00

Or at least that's what it feels like! I am counting points today. We have progress, Houston! I went to the grocery store tonight and stocked up on stuff that I thought might help me. I just ate 2 wrap sandwich concoctions that were delish! Deli ham, swiss cheese, a little avocado, lettuce and some ranch dressing on a big ol' Italian herb flatbread. It was pretty tasty. Now if I can just

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-8500020295927751622010-02-12T00:02:00.002-06:002010-02-12T00:20:52.063-06:00

This is completely ridiculous! I have, once again, gained an exorbitant amount of weight in one week. 6.4 pounds! I am now a mere 6 pounds down from my starting weight, after almost 2 stinking years of Weight Watchers! I am frustrated and embarrassed nearly to the point of numbness. I laugh about the gains because it's less humiliating than crying in front of people. I make light because

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-33813987744577650562010-02-08T16:25:00.002-06:002010-02-08T16:31:09.738-06:00

So I'm back from my unofficial leave of absence. Maybe not for long, though. My laptop has been crashing, yet again, so I've spent the last couple days frantically trying to get it to boot up for long enough for me to rescue my music. Yes, this has happened before--you'd think I would learn, but I haven't backed up my music since before Christmas. Anyway, I did manage to do that. But I've

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-32687518825541625222010-01-28T15:51:00.002-06:002010-01-28T15:57:45.760-06:00

Okay, how brilliant is it that I'm ticked off at the weather? :D Seriously, though, I've had ENOUGH of the cruddy weather already. An iced-in Christmas was bad enough. They canceled my kids' school even though there was no precipitation this morning (it didn't start until this afternoon) and my husband showed up at school anyway, because the cancellation wasn't showing up on our local radio

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-68494713967987271512010-01-21T22:12:00.002-06:002010-01-21T22:19:56.509-06:00

I bear bad tidings. I managed to gain 9.4 lbs. this week. No applause necessary. I could explain and make excuses (I wasn't eating normally last week and that was not a true loss, I ate today and had a large drink before weighing in, etc.) but in the end it doesn't really matter. The week was a HUGE BUST! I am ashamed. I am out of control. I have GOT to get back down to business, because I

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-88593422477160784222010-01-19T23:17:00.002-06:002010-01-19T23:18:19.629-06:00

Truly funny in an "oops!" sort of way...http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/34881925/

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I spent last night and today indulging myself. I ate pretty much whatever I wanted. And you know what? I didn't even enjoy it. I feel sick, stuffed and miserable. Nothing tasted as good as I remembered it being, and nothing quite hit the spot. So tomorrow I guess it's back on the wagon for me. I don't like the way I feel when I'm eating like this. It's so pathetic. Why can't I remember

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-3607727140890208042010-01-14T23:29:00.003-06:002010-01-14T23:33:48.580-06:00

Yes, I had a massive loss this week of 5.2 lbs. But it was an aberration. I won't say more than that, but it was not a true loss, so don't be surprised if I have a fairly sizable gain next week. Let's just say, my eating has not been normal for the last several days. I am excited about the loss, but I'm just being realistic and will be happy if next week I can just stay under 300.Sorry I've

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-5267068391734552272010-01-07T21:07:00.003-06:002010-01-07T21:13:00.836-06:00

Today was the first time I've gone to Weight Watchers since the week before Christmas. Our regular meeting was canceled two weeks in a row for Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve. So I went back tonight, hoping for the best. Since I haven't felt the greatest for a while, my appetite was off for several days, and luckily I managed to lose 2.2 lbs. I'm very grateful for that. It helps get me a

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Exactly 12 years ago today I married my best friend, Kevin. We've been through thick (me) and thin (him) together, through good and bad times, richer and poorer times, and he's stuck with me in sickness and in health. I'd say he's kept his vows many times over.January 3, 1998Happy 12th anniversary to my wonderful husband, the other half that makes me complete. I love you, honey!

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Just wanted to come out of hibernation and say, "Happy New Year!" I hope 2010 is better in every way. I certainly can't say I'm sad to see 2009 go--it's not been one of my better years. Sure, there have been some wonderful things this year, but also some things that I'm happy are in the past. So may 2010 bring you happiness and health.I haven't weighed in since before Christmas. Our meeting

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It's after Christmas, but ever since Christmas Day I've been feeling blah. Blah and worse than blah. Anxious. Depressed. Sick to my stomach off and on. Not fun. I am very discouraged at the moment and would appreciate your prayers, yet again. This is more than just a holiday let-down, and I'm really trying to cope but having a hard time. Thank you guys for being here for me...

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-33413589001674333212009-12-25T11:19:00.003-06:002009-12-25T12:53:55.547-06:00

So we are completely snowed in! We had a blizzard last night--literally. We could not get out of my parents' driveway in our van. My dad had to drive his 4 wheel drive truck so my husband could go home and get us clothes and my medicine and stuff. He didn't want to take us all because the weather was so bad and he was afraid we couldn't get back out to get here today, so we just spent the night.

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-50148360864727591992009-12-24T11:26:00.003-06:002009-12-24T11:33:41.733-06:00

And it may actually come to pass this year! I'm so excited because we are supposed to get some decent snowfall over the next few days. I love snow--it's so pretty (although I hate being out in it, driving in it, and I hate when it keeps me housebound!) So my eating has been atrocious, but I've pretty much decided to forget it til after the holidays. It's pretty much pointless. I have no

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-4643366299679893612009-12-19T17:13:00.004-06:002009-12-19T21:24:43.220-06:00

This just blows me away. I got the brilliant idea a few days ago to add up all of my losses from this stint on Weight Watchers and just see how many pounds I COULD have lost if I hadn't monkeyed around. You could have knocked me over with a feather when all the losses totaled up to 89.8 lbs.! Can you believe that?! I could be close to 100 pounds gone if I hadn't had to re-lose all those

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-91514538814534705472009-12-18T16:26:00.003-06:002009-12-18T16:35:28.297-06:00

I just looked at my weight chart and I haven't weighed this much since the end of March 2008! Oh. My. Word. I am beyond depressed and devastated. And sick. And annoyed. And sad. And heartbroken. And frustrated. The list could go on and on. This feels like complete failure to me. I have lost heart. I have lost confidence. I HATE THIS! I don't want to be fat. Yes, I know I'm whining,

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-33854104038370639922009-12-17T22:17:00.003-06:002009-12-17T22:34:24.317-06:00

As you may have suspected since I haven't posted in nearly a week, tonight's weigh-in brings nothing good to report. Not unless you call gaining 4 pounds "good." I'm fully expecting you guys to quit even reading this, as it can't possibly be inspiring to read about my weekly gains! I know it certainly does nothing but DEPRESS me to write about them. I just can't get it in gear. Christmas is

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-28278621039317982452009-12-11T22:57:00.003-06:002009-12-12T15:15:13.029-06:00

The party's over. Whew. So I went all out and curled my hair and tried for this elaborate hairdo. My husband said it looked good, but I didn't like it, it wasn't what I'd had in mind, and I felt like it was all ratty looking. So in a little hissy fit, I brushed it all out. Yeah. So I was not particularly happy with my look, but oh well. It just makes me so mad that my hair won't do what I

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-48330383227311982192009-12-10T21:29:00.003-06:002009-12-10T21:44:09.507-06:00

So my long and winding road has hit another uphill climb. Two pounds up and no big surprise if you've been following my pity trip lately. I'm still not particularly happy with myself, but it's time to get off high center and get things moving again. I have my husband's office Christmas party tomorrow night and I have no idea what will be served there, so I'm not going to stress about tomorrow.

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-13289064220615406522009-12-08T22:40:00.005-06:002009-12-08T22:55:47.973-06:00

Well, my eating has not improved one iota. I'm annoyed and disgusted at my complete lack of self control. Combine that with the fact that we got our family picture proofs, and my mood is decidedly cruddy. Now I realize I'm not the most objective of observers, but my face looks puffy and my sweater just accentuates my rolls. I basically just look enormous. And there's a good reason for that--

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-55075499028671581072009-12-04T18:53:00.003-06:002009-12-06T19:01:16.598-06:00

So the weather here has taken a decidedly nippy turn. Up until now it has been unseasonably warm and I've gotten spoiled. Now I can't even think about going out in my flip-flops without a coat (which I've pretty much been doing up to this point.) And with winter weather here and Christmas looming, my mind is telling me to EAT! Make cookies and real hot chocolate. Fill the house with goodies

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-34915657223022370292009-12-03T23:29:00.002-06:002009-12-03T23:34:00.948-06:00

Scale is up. I am down. Boohoo! I'm up 3.6, not a huge surprise since I've been eating like there's a famine imminent. Well, if there is I'll be the last standing survivor...Not much else to report, although I did make myself get up off my fat rear and do some more of my Christmas decorating last night. I still have some more I to do if I get around to it, but the most important stuff is

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-33904762777852413672009-12-02T16:09:00.003-06:002009-12-02T16:17:04.460-06:00

So I had planned to just bounce right back into the weight loss world after my brief Thanksgiving week departure. Didn't happen. I guess I was making up to myself for the yucky food on Sunday. I had allowed myself a splurge and it was unsatisfactory. I felt somehow cheated. Yes, I realize that is stupid and nonsensical, but that's the way my brain functions. And I've been eating stupid ever

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-60337255297499252412009-12-01T23:48:00.000-06:002009-12-01T23:49:15.628-06:00

I saw this article today, and I have to confess, it scared me!

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-13506045715801743862009-11-29T19:07:00.002-06:002009-11-29T19:11:41.805-06:00

Well, we had our Mexican food--and it was yuck. Apparently authentic Mexican food is notoriously bland. I didn't know that, but this was very unseasoned food. I felt like the calories were wasted! Oh well, you live and learn. But the indulgences are over at least. And I've learned a lesson, which I hope I'll remember: eating what you want isn't really that much fun. I've had a vague ick

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-19663849752565107892009-11-28T23:48:00.002-06:002009-11-29T00:09:27.043-06:00

The eating has been a little ugly since Thursday. I was planning to indulge Thursday and Sunday, but it's been one solid indulgence since Thursday. However, after a dinner at church tomorrow it's back to sensible eating. I know that sounds stupid to plan to eat badly, but we're having real Mexican food and I'm sorry, but I just gotta have it!This has been an interesting weekend. My sister and

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-22994143590794276102009-11-26T17:13:00.003-06:002009-11-26T17:17:28.463-06:00

It's over! The biggest eating day of the year is past, I'm back home with no leftovers, and all is well. I ate a substantial amount of food, but I didn't just gorge and there weren't many desserts that tempted me, so all in all, I think I did pretty well. Not that I'm particularly worried about it. I gave myself permission to indulge, and I'm okay with that.Anyway, I'm also thankful that I'm

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-16587525889008531672009-11-25T23:28:00.002-06:002009-11-25T23:34:34.228-06:00

Do you mean to tell me I worked and slaved and deprived myself all week long for a loss of .2 lbs?!! Yes, I'm mad! When I'm doing badly, do I ever have a GAIN of .2? Noooo, absolutely not--we see 2 lbs., 5 lbs., etc. But when I have tracked every single day except for yesterday I get a measly .2 loss! I'm so not happy about this. Sometimes I just want to scream at the injustice of the stupid

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-23779352723846958682009-11-23T23:15:00.002-06:002009-11-23T23:29:17.639-06:00

Well, I haven't posted in a few days. I really have nothing much to say. I've stayed on plan, but I'm still bored with my food. That's a danger signal. There's only so long that I'll stay bored before I rebel and eat everything in sight. Luckily Thanksgiving is coming up and I'll have a chance to eat some yummy stuff and hopefully get it out of my system.I've mainly been concentrating on

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-73756563982975248152009-11-21T15:38:00.004-06:002009-11-21T15:44:26.782-06:00

Mysterious things have been showing up on my food tracker lately. One night it was 2 lbs. of pickled pig's feet and caviar. Another time it was large quantities of beer. It was quite confusing to sit down and try to track my points and all of a sudden realize it shows I have no points left for the day or the entire week. You see, I track my points on Weight Watchers eTools and it keeps me

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-38482255032413287412009-11-19T21:10:00.002-06:002009-11-19T21:18:11.826-06:00

Well, I think I can say that this was a very successful week. I lost 5.2 lbs. and kept track of my food every single day except for today (which is automatically my "cheat" day after I weigh.) I ate out a couple times and stayed in control, and that alone is a HUGE success for me. I did not keep a paper tracker, but I tracked all my points online. I just can't stand writing stuff down. Kim,

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-66153034022538210362009-11-17T23:30:00.002-06:002009-11-17T23:38:18.593-06:00

I sneaked a peek at the scale today, which is not always a smart thing to do. Usually it frustrates me. Anyway, it showed me down 5 lbs. undressed and having eaten nothing. Not bad. :DI cooked up a pot of zero point vegetable soup last night and I think my husband has eaten half the pot! That's hilarious to me, because he dislikes nearly every vegetable in it but yet he likes the soup. Fine

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-88705894638893466002009-11-16T18:35:00.002-06:002009-11-16T18:42:31.073-06:00

We had a birthday party yesterday evening at Outback Steakhouse. That is a problem for me. I absolutely love Outback, and I feel like when I go there I must get all the high fat favorites or I've not dined. Cheese fries, fried mushrooms, lots of bread and butter, plus my entree. And I PROMISED Kim at Weight Watchers that I would be good this week, so I had to keep my word. I am happy to say

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-48349800480473564712009-11-15T12:59:00.003-06:002009-11-15T13:03:45.082-06:00

I had a brilliant inspiration last night. You see, I'm dying for a new laptop since mine went kaput this summer and my husband's appears to have some issues that may render its lifespan fairly short. I want a cutesy little Dell in some kind of funky color and design. So I asked my husband last night what kind of weight loss goal it would take to get him to buy me a new laptop. We decided that

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-18786109222411671402009-11-14T19:12:00.003-06:002009-11-14T19:24:19.434-06:00

I'm feeling a little out of sorts right now. I guess it's the getting back to eating properly and not feeling entirely satisfied that's making me grumpy. Plus, I'm feeling a little angry at myself because I have wasted so much time doing so little to further my weight loss. I know that is unproductive thinking, but that's where I'm at right now. I'm a little angry and annoyed with myself

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-63470365937989672892009-11-13T22:41:00.003-06:002009-11-13T22:45:14.829-06:00

This is day one of cleaning up my act Weight Watchers style. I've had a day of decent eating, but I can't believe how absolutely starving I am after eating a large dinner just a few hours ago! We had a late dinner and I thought I was gonna eat my fingernails before dinner was ready, but I managed to stay in control. Then at dinner I ate a lot of vegetables, along with a potato, chicken breast

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-14422853402509460442009-11-12T21:12:00.002-06:002009-11-12T21:14:58.128-06:00

Well, I gained nearly 5 pounds this week. Yes, I'm disgusted. Yes, I'm humiliated. But I made a pact with a lady at my Weight Watchers meeting tonight that we are going to lose weight next week. She even forced me to take a paper tracker home (I usually do my tracking online.) So she and I will have losses next week, and I'll let you know how it goes. I'm not particularly talkative tonight.

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-39440932025337122009-11-11T15:39:00.002-06:002009-11-11T15:45:30.909-06:00

Once again I have had an atrocious week of eating everything in sight. Junk food, fast food, chocolate, pizza, you name it! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! It's like I'm on this food-stuffing merry-go-round and I can't get off. Completely ridiculous. And it's making me feel really cruddy too. I feel terrible about myself and I feel guilty. I feel stupid and I feel discouraged. And I know that I'm

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-696223164054676302009-11-05T21:00:00.003-06:002009-11-05T21:04:58.088-06:00

Psst...Is anyone looking? Is it safe to come out?! Yes, I've been in hiding this week. I succumbed to chocolate and junk food and gained three pounds this week. Sad, but true. I've nullified in one week all I accomplished the entire month of October. Awesome. I'm getting very frustrated, not because I blame anyone but myself, but because it has been over a year and 8 months in this battle,

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-18154998907809285572009-10-29T23:24:00.002-05:002009-10-29T23:27:03.180-05:00

Chinese buffet, that is. Yes, I had a craving for Chinese food yesterday. I ate NOTHING else all day long, though. Still, combined with some other less than stellar food choices last week, I had a gain of .8 lbs. this week. Oh well. Such is life. And I always gain when I weigh right after eating Chinese food. I guess the sodium in that stuff is really lethal...

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-14106680046866260472009-10-28T12:51:00.004-05:002009-10-28T13:21:14.563-05:00

Leslie gave me another award today and boosted my spirits. What a lovely lady! Now, I'm supposed to tell you six things about myself and pass this award on to seven others!Okay, the six things should be easy. Let's see:About 7-1/2 years ago on one of the worst days of my life, (following a heart cath) my cardiologist told me that in ten years I could be facing a heart transplant. By the

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-72665750186526794812009-10-26T17:18:00.003-05:002009-10-26T17:32:54.268-05:00

It's a little bit of drizzly, overcast Monday today, and while I normally love rainy weather, I have to say that all the dreariness is a bit depressing when I'm already feeling the doom and gloom. I think I'm improving slightly, although I still don't know what to expect, because pretty much every other time I've had anxiety attacks I've gone to the doctor for a medication adjustment and just

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-55248303478347636892009-10-23T00:10:00.004-05:002009-10-23T00:17:23.921-05:00

Well, there's one good thing that comes of not feeling well--I often lose weight. This week it was 3.2 lbs.! I can live with that. As far as the anxiety and such, I'm not sure what to do. I was hoping to wait it out, but I'm just not sure how long I can deal with it on my own. If it starts to improve soon I should be okay, but I have no guarantees. For now, I'm just choosing to pray, keep

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-4600418577898499712009-10-21T14:33:00.003-05:002009-10-21T14:43:50.490-05:00

Feeling anxious and awful has put me in an introspective mood, so I decided to do as Leslie suggested and write a bit even though I don't feel like it. This is very difficult for me to write and it may be hard for you to read, too, so skip it if you like.I've been wondering how things might have been different had I taken care of myself better when I was younger. For instance, what might my

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-31963084542858788192009-10-19T19:14:00.002-05:002009-10-19T19:18:17.081-05:00

I've been putting off updating my blog because I'm embarrassed/ashamed/upset to have to say that I'm having anxiety/panic problems again. This is kind of making me avoid posting because I really don't have a lot to say when I'm like this. When I came back from ladies' retreat this started, as some severe sleep deprivation probably had something to do with my problems. Anyway, my eating at the

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-83097372041120846122009-10-14T17:13:00.004-05:002009-10-14T17:18:47.963-05:00

I have just had a quite unbalanced week. My eating was awful some days and okay one or two days. I had to weigh in early because I am going to a ladies' retreat tomorrow and won't be here for my regular meeting. Thankfully, mercifully, I still lost .4 lbs. I have to say I feel intense relief. I didn't deserve a loss--my eating was fairly out of control--but I'm so glad I had one anyway.I just

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-9198291791796558662009-10-10T23:18:00.004-05:002009-10-10T23:34:59.859-05:00

Today's eating was a big fumble. It was all okay until I got a headache and tried to medicate it with junk food. Then it was downhill from there. Sigh. Tomorrow is another day, right? I'll do what one of you guys told me in the comments once--count it as a vegetable and move on...Except that I appear to have consumed my entire week's worth of extra points in one day. Smooth move, brilliance!

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Well, the fair was fun, but the weather was HEINOUS! It was pouring the entire time, and somebody claimed they saw a porta-potty floating upright down the Midway (don't know if that was true or not, but there was enough water!) Even with an umbrella, the back and hem of my skirt got absolutely drenched and I ended up having to turn my skirt around backwards so I wouldn't have to sit in it. Fun

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-69653696901787720152009-10-08T14:59:00.003-05:002009-10-12T16:18:26.132-05:00

Well, I had an early weigh in today because of our plans to go to the fair this evening. I am happy to report that I had a 2.4 lb. loss this week! YEA! IT still takes waaaaaay longer coming off than it did going on, but I'll just have to accept that...So in just a few minutes we head off to the fair for some fun and food. But this is my splurge day (since I've already weighed in) and I intend

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-46840402645602703812009-10-07T14:48:00.002-05:002009-10-07T14:58:16.705-05:00

Great. I can't even trust my scale now. I weighed first thing after I got up and it said 293.8. That's more like it, I thought, since I'd weighed a few days ago and it only showed I'd lost like a pound or something. So just for the fun of it, I thought I'd weigh again after I (ahem) had to use the restroom. Interestingly, I seemed to have gained about a half pound in the process. Wow. So I

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-68050879301101092272009-10-05T17:12:00.006-05:002009-10-05T17:23:23.495-05:00

Okay, so this has nothing whatsoever to do with weight loss, but this little bit of cuteness just had to be shown. This is my little niece, Mallory. She is two years old and she knows she is a princess. Just ask her. Oh, and I love her attitude towards compliments. You tell her she looks pretty (or whatever) and her response is a perky grin and a convinced "yeah!" I wish I had that

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-41313068750105161952009-10-04T23:22:00.004-05:002009-10-04T23:31:24.511-05:00

This is day three on the path of righteous eating. Can I hear a hallelujah? It's 11:23 and this chick still has 6.5 points left for the day!!! That, my friends, is amazing. Cuz I have been a mean, not-so-lean snackin' machine the last few days. It was all on plan and it was all counted, but it was all adding up. My husband made fajitas tonight and I had him do LOADS of vegetables. He did a

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-41509371343985569432009-10-03T18:31:00.002-05:002009-10-03T18:43:40.431-05:00

I've got almost 2 days of good eatin' under my belt now! Thank goodness, I'm back on the wagon. I really feel disgusted with myself when I'm eating badly and it seems like when a get off track for a week or two, it normally takes me sooo long to get back into the habit of healthy eating again. I need to remember that. When I break my trend of eating right, it just isn't worth the consequences.

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-86932450536422385852009-10-01T20:03:00.005-05:002009-10-01T21:22:52.077-05:00

So I realize it's been forever since I've posted and I've gotta lot of stuff I wanna post about. So bear with me. To make it a little more readable, I think I'm going to divide this up into sections, or kind of mini posts. So here goes...Confession is Good for the Soul:Okay, so last week I didn't want to share how much my humongous weight gain was. But this week, in honor of my "Honest Scrap"

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Seriously, if there was an award for the largest weight gain at the Weight Watchers meeting, I would have won hands down this week. I am so ashamed that I'm not even going to tell you how much I gained. Sorry, but it's just too embarrassing. Let's just say, that only once before did I ever gain more than this. Maybe next week, after I've re-lost some of it and have a little time to process it

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-40134755587496491752009-09-20T18:53:00.002-05:002009-09-20T18:57:19.797-05:00

I'm feeling better, but my eating is still way off track. My birthday was celebrated well and truly and now it's time to get back to better eating. I wasn't horrible today, but neither was I careful with portions or using the least fattening options to cook with. Well, tomorrow is another day, and hopefully things will get back to some semblance of normalcy. Thanks for all the birthday wishes

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-28157271726031503122009-09-18T21:59:00.002-05:002009-09-18T22:03:31.485-05:00

A nice tummy ache. I must have picked up some kind of a bug, because I was sick all night long from about 11:30 on, and then most of the day today too. I missed my birthday lunch today because I was too sick. I almost missed my birthday dinner with my husband this evening, but I was feeling some better so we went anyway. I may end up regretting it, as I'm feeling kind of icky right now, too.

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-13638451399350257592009-09-17T20:26:00.003-05:002009-09-17T22:50:19.603-05:00

Today is my 33rd birthday, and I have done lots of celebrating. I weighed in early today so my mom and I could go out to lunch. I lost a pound this week despite my bad weekend! Anyway, this has been a really nice birthday. My mom took me to Cheddar's for lunch. Then this evening, one of my aunts made me a Weight Watchers dessert, another aunt got me a headband with birthday candles on top (

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-27814125912464910942009-09-15T16:55:00.002-05:002009-09-15T17:17:16.648-05:00

You may remember last year I blogged about Weight Watchers sponsoring the Lose for Good campaign. Well, they are continuing the campaign again this year. Not only will they donate $1 worth of food for every pound lost by members, but today only for every social media mention of the Lose for Good campaign, they will donate even more money! This includes comments. They are calling it the

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That's where I'm sitting right now--the naughty corner. I was naughty naughty. To give a little background, I have been searching everywhere for the old Hershey's 60 Calorie Sticks. They were neat little candy bars that were only one point each and they came in several flavors, like chocolate mint and caramel filled. Well, apparently Hershey's discontinued them (stupid...) so I've been

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-78517501164953183032009-09-11T18:57:00.002-05:002009-09-11T19:02:22.732-05:00

I decided it was about time to change my blog look, since fall is approaching and all. I intended to choose an autumn theme, but then I found this and couldn't resist. This is the decor I have in one of my bathrooms--I love it! I only wish this had more color...Well, today I tried a new recipe. It was okay, but not terrific. I won't be making it again. It was just Crockpot pork loin, but

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-3520305344837828952009-09-10T22:21:00.003-05:002009-09-11T13:51:07.821-05:00

Grrrrr. I thought I had been so good this week. And I dropped .4 lbs. A MEASLY .4 POUNDS!!! Okay, I know I should be happy for a loss. But I thought I did so well this week, and that is just discouraging. Looking back, I can see mistakes I made, but really, considering my usual diet, I should have lost much more. And I'm angry because in this game it seems like results aren't guaranteed. I

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-55277399472610076062009-09-09T19:27:00.002-05:002009-09-09T19:36:19.334-05:00

I went shopping again today. Ladies, I am just having some terrific luck lately! I usually hate to go shopping because it seems like nothing ever fits me. Well, today I headed on over to the Dillard's 70% off sale and scored again--two more new outfits! I missed out on a skirt I really wanted--I searched for it at 2 different stores but they didn't have it in my size. :( But I was pretty

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-77845602922355510882009-09-08T22:11:00.003-05:002009-09-08T22:20:34.970-05:00

My mom and I went shopping today for my birthday. It's still a week early, but we had some free time. While I was with her, I bought a new comforter set for my bed. I've been looking for a few months for a new one and couldn't find anything that matched. Well, after she went home, I went to one other store and SCORED! I got a jacket, linen skirt and shoes for about $26 at Cato! How's that

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-16482737284238603002009-09-07T21:15:00.002-05:002009-09-07T21:19:44.873-05:00

And so is my weight loss holiday. It was just for the day. I didn't do well today. I didn't count points. But basically I'm just going to forget it and live the rest of the week only on my daily quota of points. I'm sure I've used at least my 35 weekly points and then some. But I have been counting points every day this week as well as I could, except for today. And hopefully tomorrow I'll

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-23036799729002659192009-09-03T21:26:00.004-05:002009-09-04T00:57:30.901-05:00

But they did balance them. I stayed exactly the same. Bah! I was a bit disappointed, but I guess I'm okay with it. I knew I was tempting the scales by splurging, so it's my own fault. Lesson learned, onward and downward! I feel like I've gotten some new determination, so I'm hoping to feed off that for awhile to keep me going.And I've actually been thinking about exercising. Thinking, not

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-30402448281034044822009-09-02T18:16:00.003-05:002009-09-03T14:40:46.828-05:00

Well, I got over my splurgies, and I'm back to counting those points again. Last night I went over by about 2 points, but today I'm doing really well so far. It's supper time and I've only used about 8 points, so I should be good. I really hope I haven't ruined my chances for a loss this week by being bad half the time. Part time Weight Watching is not a very sure way to lose...Oh well, I

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-29248036949737706322009-08-31T22:44:00.002-05:002009-08-31T22:51:11.602-05:00

I have had a serious craving for Chinese food lately. I resisted on Friday. But today was a different story...I caved. I ate at the Chinese buffet for lunch. That was all I ate all day until tonight when I ate leftover Swiss steak and rice. Chinese food seriously does not like me--it always makes me gain weight--probably all that sodium. Fortunately, I still have 3 days to (hopefully) rid

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-57612777238549646832009-08-30T22:23:00.003-05:002009-08-30T22:28:52.737-05:00

The splurge, that is. It's over. I planned to splurge today, remember? And, boy did I EVER splurge! I also splurged yesterday. But it is over now. I am committed to keeping track of my points and staying within my daily points target for the remainder of the week. I was able to control myself Friday night and went to bed at only 1.5 points over my daily target. So...stay tuned for my

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-81206916448336303182009-08-28T23:46:00.002-05:002009-08-28T23:50:40.541-05:00

I was stupid. I thought I wanted to splurge today. So I had some McDonald's for lunch. Then I later changed my mind and decided that I just couldn't do it and so I tracked it all. Which left me without many points for the rest of the day. After I added my points for dinner I was at the end of my daily points. I didn't really want to go into my weekly points allowance because we are having a

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-62170800894831496202009-08-27T23:40:00.002-05:002009-08-27T23:44:54.842-05:00

Woohoo! My diligence paid off with a 3.6 lb. loss this week. I was quite happy with that, seeing as I only tracked for 4 days. I still have about 7 lbs. to go until I re-lose what I've gained, but I can see light at the end of the tunnel. I'm starting to feel like I can actually do this again. Anyway, it's almost bedtime, so that's all I have to say for now. Nighty-night!

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-28199811263037188462009-08-26T21:35:00.007-05:002009-08-26T21:54:25.428-05:00

Well, I've managed to stay on plan for 3 days in a row. That may not sound like much, but when you are trying to break a months-long trend of bad eating, 3 days is nearly an eternity. I only hope that when I weigh in tomorrow I will have at least a small loss. Because even though the first part of this week was off-plan, I have tried so hard the last few days that it would be really nice to

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-73819205047772843192009-08-24T17:16:00.002-05:002009-08-24T17:22:21.564-05:00

I had an appointment with my cardiologist today. We discussed my feelings of ambiguity about having another baby and the fact that if I don't hurry up and lose some weight before I'm 35, the baby-making is pretty much off. Well, he told me (since I've rebuffed his gastric bypass and lap-banding suggestions) that I should check into HCG injections. I haven't even looked it up yet, but it sounds

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-39693926144755461842009-08-22T15:30:00.002-05:002009-08-22T15:32:57.591-05:00

Okay, so I kinda forgot that today was a church ladies' activity. So much for the dieting today. So tomorrow maybe? Unless I find an excuse tomorrow... :DThat birthday party last night was a TRIP! I am so glad it's over. End of story. I'm not even going to go into the gumball-throwing fight or the entire bucket of crayons and pencils that was dumped in the floor or the dress-up clothes

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-41188769081692411752009-08-20T21:01:00.003-05:002009-08-20T21:08:16.683-05:00

I did badly. REALLY badly. Yikes. I gained 3.2 lbs. this week. I know, I know! But there are extenuating circumstances. I ate, and more importantly, DRANK way more than I normally do on weigh-in day. So I knew my weight would be higher than normal. And I'm really planning to do better this week. I know tomorrow will not be a good day, but I plan to get back to business on Saturday. I

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-45727031954916465112009-08-19T22:08:00.006-05:002009-08-19T22:21:31.549-05:00

Tomorrow is a busy day--sorta. My boys start school tomorrow. It is my younger son's first day of Kindergarten *sniff, sniff*! Actually, although I feel kinda sentimental about it, I'm really glad he's going to school because the two of them were getting on my last nerve! I think having my days apart from them will be great for my mental health.Also, tomorrow is the follow-up appointment to

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This week has been one solid hormone-fueled junk food binge. Absolutely insane. So it was with great relief that I discovered tonight that I maintained! For that I am extremely happy. Despite my intentions to be good last week, it just never happened. So here I am with a new week before me. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I have got to get this eating business under control! Any tips or

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Well, Sunday night was our night to see the musical "Wicked"--from the FRONT ROW, might I add? It was a-ma-zing! I loved it. I bought the soundtrack Friday and had already memorized quite a few of the songs even before we saw it. That's just the kinda girl I am... :D Anyway, after church yesterday afternoon, the boys went with my parents and my husband and I went and ate at Tin Star (which

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-56100415864587663972009-08-07T20:13:00.003-05:002009-08-07T20:39:11.679-05:00

Yeah, that's what I'll call it--insight! I gained some weight again this week, too. 1.6 pounds. But it's okay. With my aunts on board I feel an obligation to be a good example. So today I have been trying to be good. Tonight I need to go to the grocery store and get some supplies to help me be good.I'm so ready for my kids to start school! I actually think it will be easier for me when

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-1396459813154650222009-08-02T19:09:00.003-05:002009-08-02T19:11:44.500-05:00

Just haven't had anything interesting to say. I gained a pound this week, and I'm kinda happy about it. Why? Since I ate lunch on weigh-in day and drank a large drink beforehand, a one pound gain probably means that I actually maintained. And I think that's pretty awesome considering the huge loss last week and the fact that my appetite has returned. We gained 2 new member friends this past

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-51600570905083357682009-07-23T22:48:00.002-05:002009-07-23T22:51:24.453-05:00

I lost 4.2 lbs. this week. I hate the way I lost it. I've basically been eating about one meal a day, some of that choked down because I knew I HAD to eat something or I would be sicker. I would rather have GAINED 4.2 lbs. than to have gone through the hell I've been living for the last several days. It feels like an eternity. Thank God for great family and friends to support me and many

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Well, yesterday was my doctor's appointment. For my relapse, he has prescribed another antidepressant to go along with the Paxil I'm already taking. It's called Pristiq. I've never heard of it before. I'm feeling some better today. I'm trying to cope by myself (with God's help) and not run to other people every time I feel badly. I'm still mainly eating for survival--in fact I feel like I'm

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-16391235268549572222009-07-18T19:05:00.003-05:002009-07-18T19:21:35.901-05:00

Well, here we are again--at that stage where food is yuck. I feel hunger. I force myself to eat for nutrition's sake. I feel like I'm eating cardboard. Then late at night I get my appetite and I want junk. And everything I eat goes right through me just like before. This is so FRUSTRATING! I have come to realize that apparently my issue is not with Paxil alone. I am, once again,

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-52578736895951825442009-07-16T22:13:00.002-05:002009-07-16T22:29:23.030-05:00

Well, I have been a terrible Weight Watcher lately, and vacation was just another lovely example. We did do a lot of walking, but I still gained 1.8 lbs. I was happy with that, though, considering the cruddy food I had eaten. We also got a new Weight Watcher leader tonight--I'm very happy about that! :D You may remember that I've griped and griped about our regular boring leader who was also

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-26285749137182662962009-07-12T20:50:00.002-05:002009-07-12T21:12:21.501-05:00

Howdy everyone! Did you miss me? Did you even notice I was gone? We've been on vacation most of the week. We left Monday morning for St. Louis and returned yesterday evening. It was a nice trip, mostly kid-oriented, but it brought home to me how much my weight is hindering me in every aspect of my life. I was hot, tired, aching and miserable for much of the time we were gone, and I felt

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-3696856874485481752009-07-02T23:46:00.001-05:002009-07-02T23:48:02.973-05:00

Yes, up again. One pound gained this week. Joy. I have nothing else to add.

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-43159023970495252852009-07-01T21:42:00.003-05:002009-07-01T21:49:46.877-05:00

Okay, Pat, this one's for you! :D Yes people, I have a faithful friend and supporter named Pat who has been bugging me about my failure to blog much lately. So I told her I would post just for her, as long as she would leave me a comment. Here ya go, Pat--your turn! Anyway, as long as I'm here, I guess I will confess that I have been an eatin' FOOL lately. Forget all that appetite loss

Bethanyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09301899848465862717noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6002911880943985082.post-17305277116235517192009-06-27T17:16:00.003-05:002009-06-27T17:18:42.864-05:00

Maybe I should change the title of my blog...The reductions are seeming to be few and far between. I gained 2 more pounds this week. Joy joy. I know I've been a bad blogger, but I just seem to have lost inerest! It's no fun blogging about gains anyway. Well, I'm feeling quite a bit better these days, so I should really get back to losing, but I can't seem to get motivated again. Sigh! Well,

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